My Lost Phone

               

Woke up at 2:45am, heard my phone drop under by bed.
The first thing I checked was for the charger that my phone was plugged into; that would have kept it safe. In other words, it would have held on to the phone; the phone would be hanging on to it (which ever). Sadly, though, my charger had been taken off by my younger sister so my phone dropped with no trace!

Sometimes we allow people take away from us those things that charge our spirit; devotion time, prayers, bible meditation, praise sessions, fellowship and all the other things that build up our spiritual beings. This is one thing we need to think about; hold on to the activities that keeps you close to God. Hold on to the things that connects you to God. Do not let no one or thing take it from you.

Well. Anyway, as I noticed there was no charger to lead me to the phone, I stretched out my arm  with open hands to try and feel and pick up my phone but I just could not feel it! I then got out of bed. Walked straight into my sister's room just to confront her for removing my charger. I went back to my room and searched for my phone but still didn't find it. Just as I was about to give up to leave the phone search for later in the morning (as I was tired anyway), I noticed my house phone beside me. I used it to call my lost phone. My phone rang from deep underneath my bed.

The struggle to get it out from where it had fallen was unreal! I really was not ready for this situation but because I could hear it ring, I could feel it vibrate, I knew I needed it for communication, I just knew I had to bring it out from wherever it was ringing from.

I called it a couple of times and I noticed it was at the bottom of a box under my bed! So I got down on my knees, I moved things around: my bedside shelf, my shoe basket and some random boxes under my bed and finally, the box where the phone was ringing from. I still did not find the phone (even though I knew where it was) but I did at last! And I thought; I better wrIte about this. I had to come out my comfort zone to find what I needed to find. 

This is how we should search for God immediately we sense that we might have lost Him or feel distant from Him or feel like we have disconnected from the 'charger' of our spiritual bodies. We should stop everything else and start to call Him! Once you call Him, you will hear Him, you will feel Him move. So follow the lead of the Holy spirit and find God in your life again right now. Do not wait till the morning. You might miss important calls of blessings and prosperity. You might just miss the special anointing he was preparing for you. Do the right thing; pray. Just like I picked up my house phone. Pray to call God and go down on your knees to find him. Seek Him, don't stop seeking till you find Him; even when you know He is there, do not stop till you finally find Him and can feel Him. When you do find Him, adore Him. Let Him use you! Love Him. Cherish, keep and Respect Him because God loves you and your phone does not. 

For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you.

And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart.

And I will be found of you, saith the Lord: and I will turn away your captivity, and I will gather you from all the nations, and from all the places whither I have driven you, saith the Lord; and I will bring you again into the place whence I caused you to be carried away captive.

Jeremiah 29:11-14

I pray that God gives us the grace and strength not to give up when we are in search for Him in Jesus name. 

God's unfailing love

Then he said, “May the Lord not be angry, but let me speak just once more. What if only ten can be found there?” He answered, “For the sake of ten, I will not destroy it.”

(Genesis 18:32 NIV)

This verse just shows Gods' love for humanity just right from time. Out of a large city, He could have saved them all just for the sake of 10 righteous ones (which He obviously didn't find). His unfailing love and forgiveness has always been  portrayed throughout the Old testament! Imagine how much more grace, love and mercies we are privileged to have through our Saviour Jesus. Through His love, He sent His son to come die for us so we could be closer to Him! And what do we do about it? Chill and ignore and just let d blood of Christ Jesus be in vain in our lives?? Tell me, do u prefer an eternal peaceful life or groan in pain in hell just because of your little ignorance?  Its high time we think more than a second and reconsider and retrace our steps before its too late. Don't let His blood be in vain in your life. Make good use of it for ur sins now.  

Ask the Holy spirit to lead you to Christ. He hears and trust me He's ready to take you to where you truly belong. Why? Because GOD's LOVE FOR US IS UNFAILING. NOTWITHSTANDING OUR PAST. :) and thats why I love Him so much and will continue to strive to please Him n Him alone. 

Strive to Survive?

How much can you do to make God love you? How much can we do to help us make heaven when the end comes? How much effort can we put into building a positive and unshakable relationship with God? How much can we completely stay away from sin? How many temptations can we withstand?

HOW MUCH CAN WE STRIVE TO SURVIVE THROUGH OUR CHRISTIAN RACE?!

This is just a short one to make you realise that you can do nothing without the love of God. You cannot survive one day without the love of God. You can never be holy if not for the love of God. You will never have true happiness without God's love. 

If you are struggling with one problem or another, if you are battling addiction, if you are desperately seeking God's face and trying to make him happy, know that you cannot strive to survive this struggle. All you need to do is to rest in the amazing, inseprable love of God Almighty though Jesus Christ His son. It is time that you stop trying figure out what your problem or issue is and start trusting God to turn things around for your favour, time to stop regretting your past mistakes and be restored by His grace, time to nail your guilt to the cross and allow God's glory radiant in your life. It is time to stop striving to survive. But strive to know God, strive to rest in His love, Strive to live by grace, strive to allow God's peace in your heart. 

And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.

2 Corinthians 12:9 & 10

Know that God loves you beyond words can express... I really wish I could explain how much God loves us all! I am a testimony of His indescribbale love! Rest in his perfect love today and let Him help you out in this tough times and struggles you are going through. 

End time revelations

Earthquake and Rapture Revelation

I was in a church where I used to go and worship. The pastor at the pulpit was crying for forgiveness and encouraging the congregation to pray for mercy and forgiveness that the end-time is near and it is now! The lady was in tears and the whole room was filled with groaning and prayers. All of a sudden, the building we were in tilted to one side. and we all fell to the side. I looked out through the window and noticed that the ground was cracking open. people were running back and forth for safety. I was in tears and could not cope. I heard  voices cry; 'its too late', 'God have mercy', Lord please'.

My heart could no longer take this revelation so I got up!

Jesus is coming back sooner than we expect. Be prepared because few minutes away from now may be too late. Going to church would not take you to heaven! Being a chorister, preacher, leader or taking up roles at church will not take you to heaven. Come to Jesus for Him to build a great relationship with you now before it is too late.

MY STORY: MASTURBATION (part 3)

                                                                   

As I prayed, i felt comfort, one that i've never felt before. I could not comprehend it!  

"How is it that i just sinned and God is so close to me, comforting me?!" I wondered. 

The spirit within me led me to listen to Joyce Meyer and i learnt to 'lay my burdens at His feet' 

I slept off as I listened to the sermon full of peace and rest of mind. 

That morning, i dreamt and saw myself singing at the pulpit Jamie Grace; Beautiful day. The congregation was singing with me and so was my sister. After a while, they stopped singing and I kept singing as i smiled and watched then take their seats. 

Suddenly, began to feel someone coming towards me. I turned to my left and behold, was a very tall dark man.  He smiled at me and I assumed that everyone else had seen Him walk towards me so I looked at the congregation but they seem not to have noticed this man at all. That amazed me. I looked back to the man and asked "who are you?" 

"It is so sad that most people do not know hoe much I love them." He replied to me. 

He kissed me on my left cheek twice and I felt that was God that had spoken to me! I felt like the most blessed person on earth! I felt soo grateful n thankful that He could come so close to me when i just committed sexual sin! 

Weeks went by and I was standing strong. I avoided watching most movies, using most social networks, unfollowed people that posted or reposted inappropriate posts and yeah, i lived like i wanted to. Though i was not too close to God as I would have loved to, i knew I was living a sinless life. 

I reunited with someone i had not seen for quite a while and he invited me to visit him. He had shown his interest on getting into a long-term relationship with him that may lead to marriage. Though my spirit wasn't willing, I felt i could give it a go. So i agreed to go out on a date with him. He was very nice and I had fun. We went to a park though, and there, he tried to touch my breasts. I firmly resisted this though I was quite in a shock. After this, i really did not want anything to do with him anymore. 

He rang and apologised for his attempt and made it clear to me that he won't touch me like that again if i do not want to and asked for another day out. 

During these times, i was sooo weak spiritually. I barely prayed from my heart. Only just uttered words of prayers that I did not really mean. 

Anyway, we went out and I; me, I suggested we go to a park nearby... (All because i just loved this particular park) he liked the idea n eh, we did go. 

After a long walk and talk, we decide to sit and chill. It was quite windy and cold. 

I felt quite comfortable to get closer to him to get warm... and this time, i could not stop myself from having two love bites at the end of it all. At some points, while he caressed me, I was asking if what we were doing was right or wrong. I wasn't sure! He told me it didn't matter as long as we were going to be together. 

Deep in my heart, I felt the urge to stop and walk away but nahh! I just could not help the sensational feeling. This was the first time a guy had touched me the way he did. 

God so kind still, I was on my period and I just could not let him kiss me. That would have been my first kiss at 19 with a guy i did not really love. 

My sister started to ring my phone after a while as i had been away from home for a while. She was worried and concerned of what was going on. She had feelings that i had sex with Him. 

Anyways, her calls set us on our way back. I felt soooooo terrible, ashamed used and wasted when I got off that bench. I could not look at the face of d guy any more. I got angry and felt like throwing myself to the ground. Bt i thought of ways to comfort myself and started to pinch myself. As we walked out of the park tears rolled down my eyes in shame, regret n reproach. I could not blame the boy afterall, i let loose of my own dignity. 

I managed to tell my sister what had happened and geezz! She encouraged me to an extent that I felt great about myself again. 

I prayed that night like I had not done in a while and i was inspired to write a book. As I woke up, i wrote all i had seen and then thought to myself that my life must be going the way it is for a purpose. Maybe for you guys to learn from. 

After two days, I started to think back to the incident and the park and the spirit came over me again. I started to masturbate... I had made a promise to God after the dream never to masturbate again but i just broke that promise. Like seriously?! What on earth was wrong with me?! 

Few days after, there was a prayer meeting at our house and the pastor that came singled me out and prayed for me! He prayed all I needed him to pray; as if he knew my story. I was soo filled with the Holy Spirit that night. 

I noticed that whenever i fell from grace, I got closer to God when I prayed. This was because at the times when i was 'free' i didn't spend as much time as I should have with God: reason why I fall for temptations that came my way. 

Advice: whenever you get close to God, try hard not to slack but make the distance to Him even closer each day. How? Just a sincere prayer from deep in your heart morning and evening can keep you going. 

I had broken a so-called promise I made to God and geez. I know what that could result to. Indeed, God is merciful. As I write now, I am hoping that I keep been strong to overcome the temptation whenever it comes again. 

God still uses me, inspires me, helps me and supports me. Though I do not know what would happen to me in the future, I am sure God would give me the strength to go through. 

One thing I forgot to add, at various points where prayed for help, I was led to various motivating and soul lifting/resurrecting verses. I kept record of all of these verses and my favourite was/is 2 Cor 12:7-10. Vs 9 says ' each time He told me, my grace is all you need. My power works beat in weaknesses. So now, I can boast in my weaknesses so that that the power of Christ can work through me". 

This did not give me a licence to keep falling voluntarily to my weakness, but it gave me the power I needed when I fell after my souls has struggled and been defeated by my flesh. 

God used those verses as my backbone spiritually. 

MY STORY: MASTURBATION (part 2)

                                                                        

God had better plans for me. 

Life without this boy was sort of a new life for me. With God's grace, I managed to get over the whole issue and focused on my life. 

At various points in time, whenever i'd seen pictures or anything linking to sex, it stimulated me to masturbate. 1 out of 5 times, I managed to resist it but the other 4, it happens like I was not the person doing it. 

I felt used and dumbed after every incident. I cried, prayed and begged God for mercy, grace and strength after each one. 

There were times were I just wanted to give up and walk away from God but I knew i'd never find happiness outside Him. So I managed to move on with His grace and endless mercy. 

At 18, I met a guy from college who was soo persuasive about us having sex together. This guy could talk sex the whole day if he had the chance to. Coincidently, we shared the same birthday, month and year. This made me feel that there was a purpose for our meeting each other. 

Well, I felt wrong. All he wanted was to have sex with a 'Christian virgin girl'. (At least he made his intentions clear).  As much as I really wanted to give it a try, I really wanted to please God too and I knew fore sure that God would definitely not be pleased if I did. 

I tried talking to the guy about God but it seemed to create more room for him to talk dirty to me. I was not disturbed about this at the time and I just kept praying. 

After a while, it began to seem like he was raising threats to beat me if i didn't do certain things. I prayed, told adults around me and I think I handled the issue well with God's grace and that was the end. The guy stopped bothering me. Guess what though?

The things he had said, the way he had said them came running through my mind. Day after day, night after night. I tried to wipe them off, but to no avail till one faithful night, I had fallen for my weakness again and this time, I had had enough! I just could not stop hitting myself on the wall and throwing myself to the ground. 

I felt filthy and disgusted with the way I fell into temptations. 

I got tired of asking for mercy. 

The bible verse 'What shall we say then? Shall we continue in sin, that grace may abound? God forbid. How shall we, that are dead to sin, live any longer therein?'  (Romans 6:1-2) kept ringing in my head. 

I did not know what else to do.  Deep in my heart, I still believed that God would forgive me. But I kept thinking of what could happen to my ministry, my future, my body, my spirit being, my blessings and many thoughts came rushing through my head. 

Above all, the thought that God is merciful even though there may be consequences to my sin. 

The thought that God can see my heart and He knows the desire I have to know Him. 

The thought that His mercy is endless like the sea. 

Those thoughts started to grow and I knelt down in pain, tears and a heart of full repentance and asked for mercy for the 100th time (not exactly)! 

(To be continued.)

MY STORY: MASTURBATION (part 1)

                                                                        

Hi, I am 20 yrs old.
I love God & I want to live for Him.
I want to make heaven and i am ready to face any persecution that I can for His sake.
However, there was a thorn that kept poking me and poured guilt on me.
Sometimes, I masturbated.
At a very young age of 5/8 a far relation of mine had started to touch and massage my immature breasts and fingered my tender private part.
When I grew up to realise at the age of 14, i prayed for God's vengeance upon him. He died of an unknown disease.
At the age of 15 or 16, he came to say goodbye to me in my dreams.
At the age of 17/18, I found out where it stated in the bible that :

"If anyone causes one of these little ones--those who believe in me--to stumble, it would be better for them to have a large millstone hung around their neck and to be drowned in the depths of the sea.' Matthew 18:6

Not trying to freak you out, but personally, i think that shows the power of God and how assertive He could be.
Now the story,...
Since i was 16, I was not too sure if masturbation was a sin or not. I asked pastors, n carried out my own researches which somewhat led to a better knowledge of masturbation.
After prayers, I figured out that it is a sin as you see or think about a sexual act before you start carrying it out.
Whenever I carried out this act, i felt devastated. I felt like the worst sinner on earth and most of the times, I just wanted to backslide.
At a certain time, before i turned 17, I was going to commit suicide as i had had enough of life. But then, God gave me reasons to live. Suicide would have led me to hell. But choosing life meant choosing an opportunity to change and be washed and renewed.
God sent someone apart from my family for me to love. This guy supported me and helped me get verrry close to God. The closest i have ever been to Him. We prayed together n he was very encouraging.
At this point, i had stopped masturbating and it barely came across my mind as I always was busy with God or my new friend.
I thought this boy was to stay forever but after much prayers, i guess it was not meant to be at the time. 

(To be continued.)